Sisters?

Ever since I was little I have always been jealous of my sister. She's always had more friends and I always thought she was our parents favorite. After being out of town a couple of years I moved back with my children and I've been trying to re-connect with my family and my life.

I've always wanted to have that sister relationship where we could do things together, she's not a girly girl so getting our hair/nails done is out but I tried getting into something else she's into. after a few months of trying she informed me that she feels that i've pushed my way into her life and that apparently I'm not allowed to get into things with her because she has nothing that is "hers" The problem is that I've never really managed to get into the sca the only thing that i've done with her is occassionally be online at the same time she is.

I mean WTF!? I can't be in the sca or be online the same fucking time she is? Give me a break, I'm suppose to check with her anytime I want to do something to make sure it's not something she's doing?? Oh and no, she's not a kid, she's 38 believe it or not. I love my sister, I really do but she has become so withdrawn from everything lately it seems. But then I don't know much about her anymore. I feel like she doesn't want any family and that I'm just an inconvenience to her and she's bitchy about everything!

So what do I do? Do I cut her out of my life? It's obvious after all of this time that trying to get involved at all is not something she wants. My kids love her and she rarely comes to see them and part of what pisses me off is that she's acting somewhat like my douchebag ex. She won't babysit and rarely visits them, about the only time she does anyting is the big holidays and if my son wants to go visit her I know she'll say no.

So where does that leave me?? One more person I love, my kids love, gone. It really leaves me wondering what the hell I did wrong. Am I that bad of a person or are the people in my life all just nuts?